Three Years Together… And My Number Isn’t Even Saved.

There’s always that shift in someone’s personality when they go cold towards you. They lost the love they had for you and have moved on. I felt that tonight, and it fucking hurts.

Knowing this man for years, then dating him for 3, to know him inside and out and have him be so fucking cold is unbelievably the hardest thing to see and feel. I never thought this would come to this. My heart hurts so much.

The man I trusted and loved. I was vulnerable with him and allowed myself to feel safe in his arms. He has completely lost all feelings for me. The energy wasn’t the same.

I might have jacked his phone from him when he decided to leave, and the worst part—my number isn’t even saved in his phone anymore. I’m on his fucking phone plan, and I’m not saved in his phone as anything. That’s such a low blow.

Who was this man tonight? He was no one I knew. This entire time, I’ve never had him be so cold. There’s no other reason for it other than him finding someone new. Feelings don’t change overnight when you say you supposedly love someone.

He’s lying. He’s trying to keep the peace or something because he knows I’m crazy. I’m so hurt by this. He wasn’t the same person I know or loved.

My heart is confused. I’m so taken aback by his actions tonight. Makes me angry and hate him for it, but sad because I love him. I don’t understand it.

And fuck free will and the ability to love anyone at any time. Fuck that shit. Fuck him for breaking my heart. 💔